Wednesday, 28 June 2017

I'm taking a break | Life update



I'm going to take a break from blogging. There, I said it. And no, don't worry friend, it won't be for long. It's not like I love saying this, on the contrary. But I think I need to look after myself and wanted to let you all know, because you have all been so supportive.
So why? Yeah that is a good question. I think it is something I have been thinking about a lot recently and every time I come to a few conclusions. If I look at the things I have these last months, it's absolutely crazy and I can't say no to anything. I've had so much on my plate and accepted so many project that I'm just knackered for life. It's not easy to juggle university, your own blog, an other blog collective, write guest posts, work two jobs, write two books and have a social life, whilst battling through depression and anxiety. I took it too far this time.

My mental health plays a big part in it, and especially my bipolar episodes. When I'm hypomanic I tend to take on all different projects and have great schemes, but in reality I don't have the time or the quality to pull all these things off, if I'm completely honest. I think I can manage but only for a certain amount of time, because I realise now that I've overdone myself. I've seen this before with myself, but I'm stubborn and don't take any lessons from my previous situations. I've started a podcast and youtube channel, but miserably fail to keep up with these things, so I only feel like a failure right now.

I'm all over the place and I have no idea what I'm doing to be honest. I look at my latest work and I think, my blog is utter shit. I'm so tempted to delete my blog, but I'm not going to do it. It's so strange, but I know it's my own fault that my blog has become this shite hole it is. I've no idea what to do or how to continue right now. It feels as if everyone has lost interest in what I have to say. Although I love blogging and would never stop entirely, the lost of engagement can do something with your confidence and ultimately your selfworth.

So I'm going to take a break for a while. A week, two weeks, maybe a month. I have no clue. No blogging, writing or else. I will be on social media, so I'm never away, but I really need to get my life in order. Focus on me. Put the priority on me and my social life. I'm never far away if you want to have a chat or anything, just wanted to give you a little heads up.
Marc


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  1. I'm gutted to hear you're feeling like this! Please don't think people aren't interested in what you have to say. Hopefully a break will be good for you and give you some time to rejuvenate and come back in a better place. Take as much time as you need, we'll still be here when you come back.

    Becca
    www.rawrrbecca.co.uk

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    1. Thanks Rebecca for your kind words and that you took the time to read this, thank you so much

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  2. Take all the time you need, we'll still be here when you feel ready. I hope you're okay, make sure you're looking after yourself.

    Hels xx

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    1. Thank you so much, that's really lovely of you to say

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  3. Take all the time you need Marc and enjoy your break while you're away! Sometimes you need to take a step back to focus on you and you shouldn't feel that you can't do that as we all need to take care of ourselves. We'll always be here when you return to blogging and I've often found that lots of little breaks, often, really helps stop me from burning out. I'm so sorry to hear you're struggling at the moment too Marc, and despite how you may feel about your blog, please don't delete it as you always post really interesting stuff and I love coming back to catch-up on your posts, when I can! Look after yourself and take care Marc. - Tasha

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  4. Take all the time you need dear and we will all be here for you when you come back - and even whilst you are away. Send me a message whenever you need to.

    God bless you, darling, you're one in a million. X

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  5. You deserve a break. Have a bit of you time xx

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  6. Sometimes a break is the best thing for us lovely so you can sort yourself out and come back feeling fresher. Hope you take a lot of self care time and feel so much better soon. πŸŒΈπŸ’—✨

    With love, Alisha Valerie. x
    www.AlishaValerie.com | www.twitter.com/AlishaValerie

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  7. Please look after yourself. Hope you come back feeling much better Marc.

    Steph
    www.stephsworld.com

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  8. good for you for making this decision! Health should come before anything else and at the end of the day it's your blog, so don't pressure yourself to post all the time when you're not up for it! x

    G

    www.teawithgi.com

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  9. Hey Marc, take as much time as you need and look after yourself! x

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